11 Things Trauma Survivors Need to Know as They Begin Therapy

Therapy is vital to the process of healing and recovery from childhood trauma. It takes commitment, it takes time, and it takes a lot of hard work.

I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. I have lived the majority of my life (over 20 years) in a dissociated state from the realities of my childhood. In January of 2017 I went into a crisis mode; everything came flooding back, launching what felt like a full frontal assault and it swept me clean off my feet.

I went from what felt like a functioning adult, to someone with such a crippling mental illness that taking a shower, grocery shopping, and doing laundry were near impossible for me in the beginning months, and if I am honest – I still have days like that.

One of the first things I did was find a counselor – two actually. One for EMDR, one for talk therapy. I saw them both weekly for a year and a half. Now I see my EMDR therapist weekly, my talk therapist every other.

A year ago, I did a 12-month review of therapy and what I believe trauma survivors needs to know about therapy as they begin their journey.

As I near the two-year anniversary of beginning therapy I am revisiting the list and finding that much of what I wrote is still spot on (original post linked below), I have also added a couple things.

1. Finding the right counselor is SO important.

If you have started seeing a new counselor and things don’t feel right, it is okay to find someone else to talk to. Therapy needs to be a safe space for survivors to share the most terrifying moments of their lives. If you aren’t comfortable with your counselor, you aren’t going to be successful in your healing and recovery. Trust yourself.

2. Building a Safe Space isn’t as easy as you may think.

Once you find a counselor that you connect with it, it will still take time for trust to build. Anxiety is normal in the beginning stages of therapy; you are sharing your story, perhaps for the first time aloud; to feel ashamed, embarrassed, anxious, fearful, it all makes perfect sense. Just remember, your counselor wants to help you. You will feel safe in time. And if not, see #1.

3. Counseling is more that sitting and talking for an hour every week.

Therapy is more than a patient laying on a couch, talking to a counselor sitting in a chair with a notebook. There will be challenging questions that make you face negative beliefs you hold about yourself and your realities. There are goals to set, work towards, and celebrate as you achieve. Coping skills to learn, and homework to do.

4. Coping skills are harder to develop and practice than you realize.

Most trauma survivors have no idea what self-care or coping is. Unaware of how to feel and process emotions, the first response to unpleasant stimuli is avoidance or suppression, not coping and self-care. Learning to recognize triggers and heightened emotions related to the past and then manage them is difficult. Being disciplined about self-care can also be a challenge for survivors who are simply happy they managed a shower. But you will learn, eventually.

5. Reliving the trauma is going to happen, so be prepared.

It really does get worse before it gets better. This is why coping and self-care is so important. All the memories, emotions, the anxiety and fear – it will all become present at you look your realities in the face. There is no sugar coating this, the only way out is through.

6. The five stages of grief is a guideline, not a timeline.

Trauma survivors carry a lot of grief. Trauma is personal, and so it healing. The five stages will cycle, and in no particular order: for every nightmare, flashback, trigger, negative cognition, new memory that you take on, and for every new awareness and connection. Do not hold any expectations for how you will grieve your losses or heal your pain. Be patient with yourself, learn who you are, and how you feel.

7. The cycling of grief is tiring, you will long for the comforts of dissociation.

As you transverse the stages of grief, never in the same order – sometimes achieving acceptance, other times getting stuck in anger, denial, depression, or bargaining, you may get impatient with yourself. You may feel exhausted from the emotional rollercoaster, and unable to get yourself together. You may wish for the comforts of disconnection, the weightlessness of no emotional awareness. Don’t succumb. Stick with it, learn to cope, practice self-care – you will build up your stamina to manage.

8. It will become the center of your life as you regain your footing.

Suddenly finding yourselves in the throes of mental illness, treatment, and recovery is no small thing. It affects all aspects of your life. You will be talking, remembering, feeling, processing, coping – learning to integrate this huge and very ignored piece of who you are, into the life you have now. It will become an identifying marker, as it should be – while you heal. It deserves your attention, you deserve to heal. But it does not define you. You will get better at finding other joys and connections. Give yourself time.

9. It will affect all the people in your immediate life.

Husbands, wives, children, friends, co-workers. Whether they know your story or not, the new awarenesses you develop, the heightened sensitivities you will feel – there will be collateral damage. As loved one’s struggle to understand and acclimate to you and your new normal; anger, resentment, and confusion can manifest. Feelings of neglect can surface from children or friends who don’t understand why you’ve suddenly become sad and withdrawn. Communication! 100% a must through the recovery process. Your counselor will help you with this.

10. Acceptance isn’t just about the abuse suffered, it’s also about the lifetime of effects.

Childhood trauma causes physical changes in the brain during it’s earliest and most crucial times of development. Changes that occur as a protection to the child unsure how to cope with such terror. Those physical changes have psychological affects that manifest in your behaviors and your beliefs of self, long in to adulthood. PTSD due to childhood trauma can feel like a chronic illness.

11. It’s a long-term commitment, and the time you need depends on you.

There is no time limit, or guideline for where you should be by a certain time through therapy. Processing trauma from childhood abuse takes time. Learning to understand, connect to, and manage emotions will take practice through trial and error. Recognizing and managing triggers takes patience with yourself. Healing complex trauma is a commitment, and it can have no expectation or time limits.

I hope that this has helped you understand a little bit better the journey ahead as you embark on your path towards healing. Learning who you are, how you feel, and understanding and accepting the affects our abuse has on us is the bravest thing we can do as survivors.

That is how we regain control!

If you have any questions for me, please drop them in the comments below.

Here is a list of additional posts that are relevant to this topic:

Here is my Story
Reflections on 12 Months in Therapy
7 Reasons I share my Story
Why Connecting with Other Survivors Helps me Cope
Flashbacks
A Tormented Mind
Grief and I Know Each Other Well
I Have’t Accepted it Yet
How Childhood Trauma Affected my Marriage
Why a Hobby is an Important Part of Self-Care

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8 thoughts on “11 Things Trauma Survivors Need to Know as They Begin Therapy

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  1. Remarkably accurate – very honest and useful information. Thank you. Celebrate the small successes. Be kind to yourself. Listen to your body and mind. It’s tough. It really is and you’re right…there is no sugar coating it.

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  2. Thank you so much for sharing! I totally get it and I’m trying my hardest to work through the trauma even though there are so many of my family members that don’t get it and probably never will. I know that this is all about me and my recovery. Period. Thank you once again for being so open and honest. xo

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    1. Good luck with your healing; it can be so exhausting, even discouraging at times. I still struggle with feeling selfish that I have spent so much time on myself the last two years but realize that is from a life time of people pleasing and that I deserve this.

      I wish you peace as you work with loved one’s towards a better understanding of what you are experiencing. I know just how difficult it really is and all the emotions that complicate it.

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    1. Thank you! It helps me, knowing my writing helps others. We’ve all got such a mess to clean up; any Support and understanding we can get along the way is awesome! Peace to you! 💜

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  3. What are your thoughts about triggers becoming more frequent and intense? Sometimes I think it means that I’m healing, because it’s less repressed. Yet, it’s intense and difficult to manage. If you’ve written about this before I’d love the link!

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  4. Reblogged this on Growing Into Myself and commented:
    I felt a little less ashamed about how my recovery from complex trauma has consumed most of my life for the past five years.

    There’s so much work to do to reprocess trauma, to learn what I should have learned when younger, to build new adaptive coping skills. To heal.

    There’s so much grieving, and anger though I struggle to access anger. I treasure the Instagram and WordPress communities of survivors – healing can be so excruciatingly lonely. Not to mention foreign to “regular” (untraumatised) folks, as much as they may care and love us.

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