A quick update on me –
I’m struggling with depression, a lot. Worse than it has been in many months. However, I am also working on a higher level of awareness then before as my healing continues. Because of that, I feel more in control of my depression than I have in the past.
I wish control meant I could make it go away, but I realize now that control simply means I can help myself through it until it passes.
I’m much more connected to the idea of my own personal responsibility to myself as I employ self-care skills to help me cope. I need to ensure I rest properly, and to ensure I get the kick in the pants I need before rest turns into “stuck”.
The Kick in the Pants
Old Habits Die Hard
I mentioned in this week’s Therapy Dump, that I have realized I am now overworking myself here, at home on my computer, on this site. As little as 8 weeks ago I boasted the end of 50+ hour work weeks, burnt out, with no time for family after losing my job.
Those boasts meant nothing because I went and did it here, on this site – as I dive head first into the many projects I want to accomplish.
So I forced myself to create balance in my life yesterday. I turned my PC off, closed it, and left the house with my daughter. Numerous times yesterday I purposefully changed my thoughts as I kept trying to think about “work”.
I took the day off!
And I slept better last night than I have all week. My brain needed a break from trauma focused work.
The universe stepped in recently and placed family in my path at just the right moments and when I was asked the reflexive introductory “how are you” – I answered honestly.
If it caught my cousin, or either of my aunts off guard when I told them how sad I am, they didn’t waver – instead we took our moments to talk and connect.
In those moments I didn’t monopolize with my sorrows; I shared, they comforted, and then we moved on to enjoy the connection. My cousin did give me some self-care homework for the week – love that girl!
Some Exciting Things Happening Right Now
It was nice to be a part of their interview project. I have shared my story through other sites previously but it was collaborating with them when it dawned on me I should provide a similar platform and I created the Survivor Speak Interview Series.
I also have an Instagram Live interview coming up this Saturday (more details to come) with @bachpan-Save The Innocence a volunteer organization out of Panchkula, India focused on helping educate and provide resources to the people of India regarding childhood sexual abuse.
I will make sure to announce the date and time and I will also post the full interview once complete so keep an eye out!
In the News:
Some articles I saw this week that might interest you, because why not –
- Health Beat: Healing impact of trauma-centered yoga
- Using trauma-informed care principles to deliver healthcare with telehealth
- You can see it in their eyes: Traumatic experiences leave mark on pupils, new study finds
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