Another month has passed, how quickly this year seems to be moving – some of it in a surreal blur. As I look back on last month’s goals, as I take stock of the last 30 days of my life – I realize, I need to change some stuff up.
This last month has taken a toll on me. I have struggled through some deep depression, I’ve grappled with a lot of loss, and I have worked to accept some painful stuff.
As I look back on the things I had hoped to accomplish – I see that my priorities (with good intention) were a little bit off base vs. what I needed from myself.
Too Much Focus Outward
Last month I continued to focus on consistency with my writing. Which I have done well – I have a new advocacy series called Survivors Speak where I provide a platform for survivors to share their stories with other survivors. Submit to take part. I also set up a content calendar to ensure information and resources stay consistent.
I wanted to launch my book but for a second month in a row that was not a priority.
I had plans for getting in front of the camera, and while that will be happening soon – it didn’t happen last month. Not once.
I am still focused on moving my body but I still lack the necessary motivation – and I don’t want to hear that if I exercise I’ll have more energy – I am fully aware.
Acceptance of my new path is probably the one thing I did the most work on, and why I hit such an exhausted state of depression. However, I am finding my way out, learning new methods of coping, and coming to terms with the truths in my life whether I like them or not. This was really the only goal I had that had to do with me, as a person healing.
Time to Focus on Myself
This month’s goals are all about me. I need to reconnect to myself, refocus on who I am, what I need, and how my family and friends play a part of that.
Work has always been a place that I find identity and so, when the pandemic gave me the time to focus on Trauma Support and Advocacy I jumped into it full force and I have missed some valuable time with special people that wasn’t always available. All my goals have been work centered and I wore myself out during a time I needed tenderness and support from myself.
I plan to change that this month. I finally got the enrollment process for my soon-to-be kindergartner moving, it’s time to take full advantage of the last 30 days before school starts!!
My Goals for August
Practice More Mindfulness & Self-Care
This month I challenge myself to one act of Self-Care per day and a more mindful approach to my interactions with myself, my family, and my friends. This will be a challenge for me – completely outside the realm of my normal living. I am excited.
Better Routines & Personal Accountability
As I emerge from the fog of my most recent depression, I realize my responsibility to myself in these situations to create a routine – a schedule for my time each day that gives me purpose. With that, I must hold myself accountable to my obligations, as well as the consequences if I don’t follow through. Mindfulness and better self-care should help with this.
Teach My Daughter to Write her Name
We’re starting school next month, and it is super exciting. I have considered homeschooling since I was pregnant, the pandemic made it a no brainer. My little one is about to start kindergarten and I get to play a huge role in her learning, both an honor and quite the undertaking (major props to teachers). I am going to teach her to write her name this month! She has three of the seven letters down – she’s got this!! And so do I!
Read One Fiction Novel
In the last 4 years all that I have read is: text books, self-help books, science and psychology behind trauma books, online media, and the real-life stories of others here in this community. No fiction. No make believe. I used to LOVE to read – in 2014 I challenged myself to 25 books that year but realized I was in such a hurry to reach my goal I missed the greatness of some of the stories. I plan to read a book this month – feel free to drop suggestions in the comments.
Face Up to the Work that Needs to Happen in my Marriage
This is in no way a suggestion of a marriage in trouble – but it is a marriage filled with challenges. I am a much different person as I heal my trauma, than I was 11 years ago when we met and I was dissociated from my childhood. The more I tune into myself through this healing, the more I realize the work that goes into a relationship. The vulnerability, the trust, what it feels like to let down my walls and still be accepted fully. It is so unfamiliar, even uncomfortable. So I tend to avoid it. My husband is so patient, he is constantly working to understand how trauma affects me, and he deserves just as much effort from me in return.
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What are some of your goals for August?
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