Thoughts Over Coffee
Coffee is therapy. Read along as I relate and offer affirmation to the struggles of living with Complex PTSD over my morning coffee.
I had a recent therapy appoint where my inner child showed up in all of her petulant charm as she steeled against the idea letting go of anger. Anger is righteous, and it is all the accountability I have.
I’ve been reflecting and digging deeper into the anger that came out and where it comes from.
It’s the same anger that always shows up when I am starting to shift into full acceptance. The anger at ALL of the emotional turbulence, at my inability to control some things, and the reality that the only control I have is understanding that this is what trauma healing is. It’s not fair what I went through and is sure as hell isn’t fair that I have a lifetime of affects to live with.
Which is why it is SO, SO, SO important that we all remember – it is okay not to be okay. It’s okay to put ourselves first. It is okay to let others know they are crossing a line.
Childhood abuse and trauma is a mind fuck. It tells us we aren’t good enough and don’t deserve peace or happiness. Don’t measure yourself against societal norms that have no understanding of what you carry every day.
Be you, take care of you! Fall apart if you need too, move through a day of numb is that is what it takes, and tell that friend or family member – “sorry, not today.” Love yourself the way you love others. You deserve to heal!
It is time to put yourself first!
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