Coffee is therapy. Read along as I relate and offer affirmation to the struggles of living with Complex PTSD over my morning coffee.
I’ve done some major lifting the last few months. The new connection to my inner child is electric, and it is exhausting. As I talked it out in therapy recently I realized the weird dissociation I sometimes struggle with.
I’ve been present, but the days keep getting confused in my mind, and hours seem to disappear. It’s a weird space to be in recognizing my dissociation with such awareness in the moment. Healing is a marathon, not a sprint. And every time I come to a rest area with flashing lights – Its important I stop for a breath and a glass of water.
When I find myself face-to-face with my proverbial wall I know I have done too much and I need to make my self-care choices count. When I push myself to this point, I always suffer negative consequences – a missed day at work, procrastination on a project I need to work on, I miss an important email or blow off necessary correspondence – all because I drained my tank and need to take a very obvious day away from things to allow my mind and body to calm and recharge.
Complex PTSD is a struggle, you never know what kind of day you are going to have. It’s why a tool kit for coping, and proper self care is so important. Acceptance of my process means I meet each day with acceptance and compassion. I’m drained because of the healing I am doing – that isn’t a bad thing!!
Be patient and kind to yourself through your ups and downs, you are doing some truly amazing work on yourself!Â
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