Thoughts Over Coffee via @survivingchildhoodtrauma ☕️
A couple weeks ago at my reiki/body coding session, we focused on my third eye chakra. Fear, anger, and defensiveness were identified as the main reasons I feel lost.
My clarity is clouded which is leading to additional emotional and spiritual blockage.
As she worked with my energy field and higher self, friendships I am conflicted about came up as she continued to pinpoint things I know I’m struggling with.
It all slowly fell into place as I moved through the energy healing with her.
Basically, she told me what my therapist has been telling me for weeks (guess I need to hear this one a few times 🤷♀️).
I am in my head, avoiding things, and the emotional and energetic blockages I am creating in myself are causing me to freeze. 😮💨
I feel this freeze mode manifesting in much of my daily life but I have had myself convinced, still, that I am in control and managing myself.
Maybe I am, a little bit – I am still learning.
Anyway, I do feel an energy shift in my clarity.
I am still holding on to ideas of people that aren’t true. I am angry and defensive but I have been suppressing these emotions under the guise of my own “healing” journey.
My protective parts are stealth-like and anger at someone hurting me is not something that has ever been comfortable, or safe, in their perception of the world. 😢
It is time to face this anger and the fear that comes with it with compassion and validation. It is time to let go of defensiveness and grieve what was, so that I can move forward into what is. 🔥
I work with my pull to please-people and abandon myself nearly every day. I often wonder if I will ever be able to fully soothe the abandonment wound left by my childhood experiences, but I will never stop trying. 🥺💪🏻
I still learn daily what it means to make space only for people who value me. Boundaries aren’t just about how others treat me, they are also about how I treat myself. ✨
On goes the journey 💪🏻
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