A Walking Historical Record

Thoughts Over Coffee ☕️ via @survivingchildhoodtrauma

Reiki & Body Coding

I have used Reiki in addition to my therapy and other healing tools . I found a practitioner local to me that I am comfortable with. In addition to reiki she also uses body coding; as much as I love the reiki, it’s the body coding that really does it for me.

Body coding is a practice created by a chiropractor who believes our bodies store every single experience we have lived through in our cells, bones, blood, tissue, etc. Our bodies are walking historical records.

I have never related to something more deeply in my life and I remind myself of this concept often, especially in the height of emotional or behavioral triggers that are difficult to manage.

Realizing My Fear Filter

In recent days I have had some major breakthroughs in awareness and perspective, the kind that feel visceral – I literally feel the wires in my brain reconnect – and I realized (even though I have always known) that everything I do in life has a fear filter on it.

There is always an exit plan or plan B.

I overthink all the what ifs.

I need control, period.

When something has the potential to create danger, regardless of what it is (which means this happens with happy things too) fear tries to dictate how I feel, think, and respond.

It is how my mind and body learned to navigate the world. This filter was born of terror when I was too young to remember and it has protected me for decades.

Learning Safety Isn’t Easy

Now as I heal, I am tasked with teaching myself that I am safe now, that I can protect myself, that I have the tools to soothe myself in times of overwhelming emotion.

But undoing nearly 40+ years of fear based responses doesn’t happen quickly.

So I am gentle with myself and patient through the process of introducing new information to challenge the historical record my body is keeping.

Please be gentle with yourself too.

On goes the journey

Looking for ways to connect with other survivors and/or receive support as you heal?

Survivor’s Circle Peer Support Groups might be just what you need. These small groups meet on alternating Wednesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays via Zoom. In these groups, survivors connect, share, and support each other through the ebbs and flows of healing. Attend a session and experience the magical healing that happens when survivors connect and support each other through shit only we can understand.

You can also book individual 1:1 peer support sessions with Shanon for private support in a closed space. You deserve support as you heal, and I am here to help. You don’t have to heal alone.

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