Acceptance of life's fluidity can be difficult.
Sometimes I don't have many words for the chaos in my head as I deal with the long-term effects of childhood sexual abuse. Chaos. That is really the only word I can think of to describe it. The simplicity of Haiku helps me slow down the emotional onslaught. Here are a few I've jotted down... Continue Reading →
I have had a hard time lately sitting down to write. Even when I am not posting I try to journal, if I do not address all my emotions they come out one way or another whether it be tears, rage, or raging tears. But lately, I have not been able to find words for... Continue Reading →
Traumas may vary but I've found that the effects often don't. For the last 8 months, I have been facing my childhood of sexual abuse head on, which has not been an easy feat: I often transverse between confidence and terrified emotional chaos. As I child, it was deep-seated into me not to trust my... Continue Reading →
As a survivor of sexual abuse as a child, I am working hard to recognize and undo a lot of negative connotations about myself. One of the hardest, “I am not good enough”. I spent my whole childhood feeling like a burden to the family that was supposed to love me. I was raised by... Continue Reading →
I fight my emotions, a lot. All the emotions that are bottled up inside. When they get intense I get hung up on the fact that I actually feel them rather than allowing myself to process and deal with what has caused them to begin with. It has been my biggest struggle in therapy, feeling my... Continue Reading →