Denial is tricky, it hides in plain sight.
I feel like we are about to miss what seems like the perfect opportunity to educate about sexual abuse/assault; to learn about, create, and find ways to fund community resources; to protect the safety of disclosure and the integrity of the victim; to reflect on how we value the people in our society, women, and... Continue Reading →
Sometimes I don't have many words for the chaos in my head as I deal with the long-term effects of childhood sexual abuse. Chaos. That is really the only word I can think of to describe it. The simplicity of Haiku helps me slow down the emotional onslaught. Here are a few I've jotted down... Continue Reading →
It is amazing how silencing pain can be, how isolating shame and embarrassment can feel. The anxiety and uncomfortable vulnerability I feel as I share this is hard to articulate, but the more I share, the easier and more empowering it becomes. I realize I am taking back the control I once lost. As a... Continue Reading →
As a survivor of sexual abuse as a child, I am working hard to recognize and undo a lot of negative connotations about myself. One of the hardest, “I am not good enough”. I spent my whole childhood feeling like a burden to the family that was supposed to love me. I was raised by... Continue Reading →
I fight my emotions, a lot. All the emotions that are bottled up inside. When they get intense I get hung up on the fact that I actually feel them rather than allowing myself to process and deal with what has caused them to begin with. It has been my biggest struggle in therapy, feeling my... Continue Reading →
Any trauma survivor knows that trauma is unbiased and it is complex. If not dealt with correctly, it can show up at any time, triggered by just about anything. Time is also not a friend to unresolved emotional issues. My trauma, which has been brewing under the surface for decades boiled over in an unrelenting way... Continue Reading →